Alone Sometimes?

Why do I feel so alone sometimes? I wake up knowing I am going to be surrounded by loved ones. I know I will be going to work where there are people there that are loved ones. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t talk to someone or multiple someones and yet the feeling of being alone still hits hard. In the race to keep up with life’s responsibilities the person I am gets lost in the mix and because of that loss it’s hard to get back to the person I am. This is where the feeling of aloneness happens even in a crowded room. I can bet that everyone at some point feels this. It’s not something that has an easy fix but maybe there ways to start finding an answer.

Romans 8:31-39 does touch on this. If you know the Bible this is the passage in which it says in verse 38-39:

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Basically it’s saying nothing can separate us from God, I truly believe this but I still feel “alone”. If I were to really be honest though, my feeling of “alone” has more to do with being exhausted with the things in which I have placed in my life. There is no downtime in which I just allow myself to have no expectations, no rules no requirements of my time. Even on my “slower days” I have the ever present self guilt of not being busy enough. I do not find my rest in the Lord, and so I forget that I am worthy of just being me because I don’t have to work for anything when I trust that God loves me and will not allow anything to separate me from him.

Our world at present is so inundated with information, with ways to be better, to make more money. We are given so much of this knowledge and “know how” that we just keep pushing forward. It’s the mentality of what can I do that will better my situation which will thus better the society in which I live? We keep gathering and gathering more information, sometimes without realizing we are gathering. My son just told me the other day that a hamster’s brain is the size of his fingernail. I asked where he got this information and of course he said the internet. Is this fact true? Honestly I don’t know, but it’s now a tidbit of information that he has given me. He was able to repeat the information but did he check to see if it was accurate? My bet is no.

So then what if we had someone that could show us how to be productive but also take time to turn off the noise and find out who we really are? This person would be someone that we could learn from but not in a classroom, but in life. We see what they do and we learn to integrate it into our own lives. This person would show us how to be ourselves by being true to who they are. We would be successful in life because we would be taught to have balance and to love as we want to be loved. Wouldn’t it be amazing to have someone who would volunteer their time to guide us and teach us what it’s like to be who we were made to be? Oh and if we screw up, that’s just part of the learning, since we will learn from it, and there is no guilt allowed. To me that sounds amazing! Good thing we already have that person, we just have to get past the blinders we have on and see that Christ wants to be that someone. We just have to chose to let Him lead.

The times in which I feel most alone is when I have created an environment of chaos. I am always on the go or my mind is always turned on to the things of the world. I am most connected to who I am when I unplug and I pull out my Bible and I start talking to God. When I think I can do it on my own I am being selfish, and unwise. My “Joy meter” is on empty and that is felt to the core. It’s in this time that Romans 8:38-39 rings truer than true. Until next time:

Never be impatient with your circumstances, never lose your calm in any situation, never be in a hurry when making important decisions of life; your impatience can ruin everything, instead be patient, pray and let time time take it’s own course.

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